Browsing the archives for the grief category
I had a bit of a semi-sabbatical time over April, May and June this year. One of the reasons for the time off was to work through the grief I haven’t had time to process before. I decided before the semi-sabbatical to create a playlist of songs which remind me of Amy:
Miracle Foo Fighters, In [...]
It’s been 5 months since I last blogged here. I feel bad about not having blogged about alot of stuff I’ve thought over that time, but one of the things I’m learning is that most things are temporary, especially when you have a baby!
It was around 5 months ago that I had a bit of [...]
I have now finished reading the book Where Is God When It Hurts and it has been very thought provoking. Although it deals largely with physical pain and things like terminal illness, it still helped me think through the pain of my grief in different ways.
The last section of the book is about what Christianity [...]
A couple of weeks ago I was getting very angry. Not about anything in particular, just in general. Small things which annoyed me would send me into a rage and I didn’t know why and found it hard to control myself. I swore and smacked a cupboard door at one point over fumbling with a [...]
I recently blogged about Job and his suffering and how he chose to still love and honour God throughout. I was inspired by the book Where Is God When It Hurts to realise that Job didn’t deserve the suffering he endured and that God does not punish people with suffering.
Further on in the book, Philip [...]
I recently came across a song by John Mayer called Stop This Train (lyrics here) which is beautiful.
I have listened to it over and over again over the last week or so, each time finding myself connect with his lyrics. It gives me a feeling of nostalgia and a longing for a different version of [...]
I have asked many times why Amy died. I’m not asking how she died, her stillbirth was one of the 50% that are unexplained. I want to know why.
Mary-Lou particularly has battled with the idea that Amy died because of something she did or didn’t do. No matter how much doctors, midwives and friends reassure [...]
When I was a teen I found self discipline fairly easy.
I never had a rebelious period in my youth. I put that down to the fact that when I was 14 I learned alot more about my heart condition and what God said to Mum & Dad during my first few weeks. It left me [...]
Mary-Lou and I were at our favourite restaurant on the Curry Mile this evening – Fatoosh. Over the speakers Damien Rice was singing and we agreed that his music was quite sad. I really liked what I was hearing, having never really heard his stuff, and wondered why there aren’t equally talented Christians writing this [...]